This Is the Key to Joy Itself

In February 2014, a girl named Porter Louise Vought was born with cystic fibrosis.

By the time she was five months old, her parents were already juggling breathing treatments, medications, chest physiotherapy, and frequent medical appointments. It was a lot for a baby, and even more for her parents, who knew that children born with cystic fibrosis weren’t expected to live much beyond their early forties.

But Porter had something going for her that children born with the disease decades earlier hadn’t: thirty years of scientific progress.

In the 1980s, geneticist Dr. Francis Collins joined the search for the cause of cystic fibrosis. As Dr. Mitch Drumm, a researcher in Collins’s laboratory, later reflected, “If you want to fix something, you have to figure out what is broken first…”

In 1989, after years of painstaking research, Collins and a team of Canadian scientists finally found what they were looking for: a tiny, three-letter error buried in chromosome 7.

The discovery was huge. Still, finding the cause of cystic fibrosis was one thing. Figuring out how to treat it was another.

That would take another thirty years of research, clinical trials, government funding, and donations to the Cystic Fibrosis Foundation. Finally, in 2019, the FDA approved Trikafta, a revolutionary treatment developed by Vertex Pharmaceuticals that addressed the underlying cause of cystic fibrosis and dramatically improved the outlook for people living with the disease.

Forty years of scientific progress and billions of dollars in research meant Porter, and children like her, no longer had to grow up expecting an early death.

“The cure for cystic fibrosis is what happens at the end of decades of science and becomes so fully taken for granted that science is forgotten and all seems obvious in retrospect,” Michael Lewis writes in Blockers. “Had Porter been born when Francis Collins began jumping around chromosomes, she would have died long ago; had she been born yesterday, her parents would need to summon no more than mild concern.”

For Collins, the discovery was “like a glimpse of God’s mind, that we have understood something that God already knew.”

He had experienced one of life’s truisms: persistent effort, over a long enough period of time, creates extraordinary results.

Unfortunately, he would also experience another: fools have many followers; wise people have few.

—

By May 2017, Robert F. Kennedy Jr. had spent years promoting the belief that vaccines caused autism.

Scientists had spent years investigating autism, too. They found links between autism and prenatal infections, and autism and exposure to pollutants. But they could find no link between vaccines and autism.

Still, Francis Collins, now director of the National Institutes of Health, agreed to meet with RFK Jr. and hear him out.

Weeks before the meeting, RFK Jr. sent Collins a list of 94 academic papers that he believed supported his claims that vaccines caused autism.

On the day of the meeting, RFK Jr. arrived carrying a cardboard box of papers as evidence.

“The special weirdness of the performance,” Lewis writes, “was RFK Jr.’s assumption that he could make a thing true just by saying it. As he read through his evidence, a department head would try to point out that it had already been discredited. ‘Don’t interrupt me,’ RFK Jr. would say. ‘I need to get through this.’”

Forty-five minutes in, RFK Jr. was still refusing to listen. Eventually, he stormed out.

Collins followed up with polite notes. After the first, RFK Jr. stopped responding.

As Lewis observes, “The idea that there might be some link wasn’t nuts. What was nuts was RFK Jr. using his family name to secure a meeting on a subject with the world’s leading authorities and then roll in for the sole purpose of informing them that he knew better than they did.”

—

Fast-forward to 2025.

DOGE came in, and Francis Collins was out. Officially, he’d retired. But according to Michael Lewis, Collins had actually been given a choice: resign or be fired for cause.

RFK Jr. was now Secretary of Health and Human Services.

The administration began slashing funding to American universities and restricting collaborations with foreign researchers. Yet $1.6 million was directed to the University of Southern Denmark, for an experiment in Guinea-Bissau, a small country in West Africa.

Guinea-Bissau has one of the highest rates of hepatitis B infection in the world. Without preventive treatment, babies born to mothers with highly infectious hepatitis B face up to a 90 percent chance of contracting the virus. Of those who develop chronic infections, roughly a quarter may eventually die from liver disease or liver cancer.

The original proposal called for enrolling 14,000 newborns and dividing them into two groups. Half would receive the hepatitis B vaccine at birth. The other 7,000 would receive it at six weeks.

Here’s the problem: For these vulnerable newborns, prompt vaccination combined with other preventive treatment can reduce the risk of infection from as high as 90 percent to less than 5 percent. Withholding the vaccine at birth would leave some newborns vulnerable to a preventable disease.

And for what?

The experiment wasn’t designed to determine whether the hepatitis B vaccine prevents hepatitis B. Decades of evidence show it does. Instead, the experiment was designed to investigate…hypothetical harms.

This month, after widespread criticism from scientists and public health officials, Guinea-Bissau’s government officially rejected the experiment.

Had it gone forward, children could have contracted a preventable disease and eventually died. And, as Michael Lewis put it, they “would have died for a cause: proving that RFK Jr. was right.”


Thomas Merton said if we’re incapable of humility, we’re incapable of joy, because only humility frees us from the self-centeredness that takes away from joy.

That was supposed to be the beginning of this newsletter.

But then I found the above stories and thought they were too important, and too timely, not to discuss here, especially in the context of humility. Or in this case, a lack thereof.

The stories speak for themselves about the dangers of arrogance. But a lack of humility isn’t always grand and obvious. It can be perfectly detrimental in our most ordinary moments.

The other night, I wanted to watch a TV show before bed, but something I had committed to earlier had taken longer than expected. I felt myself getting impatient, rushing to get to what I wanted to do.

Then I thought of Merton’s idea: humility is happiness because it relieves you from the burden of selfish desires and self-centered expectations.

Immediately, the frustration melted away. I smiled and thought: How lucky am I to be here, at this moment, right now?

Wow!

By letting go of what I wanted the moment to be, I could finally enjoy what it was.

I know this sounds dramatic over a TV show, but aren’t most of our daily frustrations objectively petty? Life doesn’t go the way we want, and we make ourselves miserable wishing it would.

Leo Tolstoy said, “Life could be limitless joy, if we would only take it for what it is, in the way it is given to us.”

Humility is the key.

It’s the key to learning, to self-awareness, to a sense of direction. To growing and to doing the right thing. To better relationships. To patience and gratitude and selflessness and service. To living in the present, and therefore, living to the fullest. To freedom, to an easy laugh, to a cheerfulness despite it all.

It’s the foundation for all other virtues.

And virtue, as we know, is the key to joy itself.

,

Books Read This Month

The American Way of Killing by Malcolm Gladwell
Oh my gosh, this book BLEW MY MIND. Gladwell sets out to answer this question: Why is America so violent? There is a difference, he points out, between crime and violence, and the statistics at the beginning of the book had me racing through the pages.

For instance, he asks the reader to rank these 5 Western cities by their homicide rates: London, Toronto, Chicago, New York, and Paris. You probably guessed something close to the actual ranking:

1. Chicago
2. New York
3. Toronto
4. Paris
5. London

Now take those same five cities and rank them on robbery rates. You probably think the ranking is similar. It’s not. Here’s the ranking based on robberies:

1. Paris
2. London
3. Chicago
4. New York
5. Toronto

So, if it’s not a matter of crime, then what accounts for the violence in America? This book completely changed the way I look at guns, policing, and the immorality of ignorance. And this is far from a one-sided argument; Gladwell argues that America needs more police officers—a lot more. If you only read one book this year, read this one. Your mind will be blown to pieces.

Blockers: Rebels in the Deep State by Michael Lewis
This is another book that blew my mind—it’s Michael Lewis for goodness’ sake. (Does he ever not deliver?) It’s an inside look at the wrecking ball that was DOGE. It’s nearly impossible to measure the damage done when you replace qualified experts with political favorites. (“For even Christ did not make his favorite disciple, John, the head of his church,” Josef Pieper wrote in The Four Cardinal Virtues.) Think about scientific research. When you fire scientists and cut funding, how do you measure the discoveries that might never happen? There’s no way to prove, for instance, that the cure for cancer has been delayed by ten years. DOGE claimed to save taxpayers billions, though its figures have been widely disputed. But how do you calculate the cost of years of lost research, delayed treatments, and human lives? Needless to say, I wrote a lot of expletives in the margins of this book. Also, it reads like a thriller. Buckle up.

Misc.
As you probably know, I love the musical Les Misérables, so when The Phoenix Theatre Company put on a production, I went and saw it…three times. It was exhilarating. The cast was so talented and I was lucky enough to meet a few of them! The musical got me thinking about Victor Hugo and his life, so I read (most of) Graham Robb’s Victor Hugo: A Biography, which was good, but a tad long-winded. (A book on Hugo that I absolutely LOVE is Marva A. Barnett’s To Love Is to Act: Les Misérables and Victor Hugo’s Vision for Leading Lives of Conscience.) I was so moved by the musical that I also bought The Musical World of Boublil and Schönberg. by Margaret Vermette to understand how something so powerful is created…though I don’t think there’s really an answer. Some things are just otherworldly. I read Kate Bowler’s newest book, Joyful, Anyway, which I really enjoyed. Her book No Cure for Being Human is wonderful too. Then I read Freak Kingdom by Timothy Denevi about Hunter S. Thompson’s political writing and it was SO good. If you’ve never read his classic essay about the Kentucky Derby, do yourself a favor and read it. It’s hilarious. Finally, I read Pirate Hunters by Robert Kurson which is good and worth reading, though I liked his book Shadow Divers a lot more. Shadow Divers is insane.

, , ,

All Good Things, and Good Fortune, Live Here

Seneca said a good way to know whether something is worth pursuing is whether it has an endpoint.

Unnatural pursuits have no endpoint. Fame, excessive wealth, power, praise—it’s hard to know what’s enough.

With natural pursuits, the goal is to finish what is in front of you right now. This newsletter. This mile. This meal. This phone call. These dishes. This conversation.

When I go for a run, if I don’t force my mind to stay present, it naturally goes to the future, to all the things I still have to do that day. It zaps my energy. Same with writing. If I start thinking about the next paragraph, the sentence I’m writing goes slack. It always does when my attention is not fully in it.

Because the problem with thinking into the future is that the future does not exist.

C.S. Lewis said that we’re biologically inclined to point our passions and pursuits toward the future. Because of this, “nearly all vices are rooted in the future.” Fear, greed, lust, worry—they all exist in the future, built on the anticipation of some outcome.

The present is the only place where goodness is found. And…

The Present Is Full of Good Fortune

In 1994, Anthony Russo, a captain in the Colombo crime family, was convicted of racketeering and violent crimes connected to the murders of two members of a rival faction. In 1999, a federal judge gave Russo a life sentence. Because it was federal, he’d have no chance for parole. He would die in prison.

In 2018, a bipartisan criminal justice reform bill called the First Step Act was signed into law. This act changed federal compassionate release procedures and allowed incarcerated people to ask courts directly for sentence reductions. After serving 29 years in prison, Russo applied for compassionate release. It would be up to Judge Frederic Block to decide his fate. Should he free him? (“What would you do?” he asks the reader in his fascinating book A Second Chance: A Federal Judge Decides Who Deserves It.)

For most of the decades Russo spent behind bars, there was no First Step Act. There was no realistic reason good behavior might someday help free him. And yet, Russo kept working on what was in front of him. He earned his GED, completed more than 40 educational courses, maintained a steady work assignment, and went 21 years without a single disciplinary infraction—a hard thing to do in a place with so many arbitrary rules. Prison staff described him as a ‘model inmate,’ ‘considerate, respectful, hard-working,’ and deserving of ‘a second chance.’ One supervisor wrote, ‘Mr. Russo has consistently shown a desire to not only better himself and the people around him but to improve his environment and community to the best of his abilities.’

Judge Block would eventually call his rehabilitation “extraordinary,” and though he denied most bids for early release, he granted Russo’s. In 2022, at the age of 70, Russo walked free.

Block cited numerous reasons for his decision, but the one that tipped the scales in Russo’s favor was how hard he had worked to become a better person despite having no hope for freedom.

Whatever Russo imagined about the future, the record he built was made out of things immediately in front of him. This class. This job. This day. This choice. His future had been closed off, but his present remained wide open.

After nearly 30 years of creating his own good fortune, he had stacked up a debt that luck would eventually have to pay.

Cultivate Your Own Garden

In Voltaire’s Candide, Candide and Cacambo, weary from their travels, stumbled upon the village of Eldorado, a literal utopia. Its people lived in harmony. There were no courts, no prisons, no religious disputes—only peace. Jewels of extraordinary worth—what the locals called “pebbles”—scattered the roads. Yet to the people who lived in Eldorado, the jewels were as unremarkable as dirt; wealth was shared, not hoarded.

At first, Candide enjoyed the serenity of Eldorado and the pleasant yet unfamiliar feeling of contentment.

But soon restlessness crept in.

A force began to work on Candide, not unlike the devil on your shoulder C.S. Lewis wrote about—the voice that creeps in when you’re absorbed in the present. Why don’t you get a bite to eat? It suggests. You protest: not now, I’m in the middle of something important. Yes, the voice agrees. Much too important to do on an empty stomach.

Thomas Merton called it by its oldest name: hurry.

“Hurry,” he wrote, “ruins saints as well as artists.”

Hurry is always trying to get us to be something else, to go somewhere else, to do something else. Hurry wants the payoff. Hurry is concerned with the future.

Hurry began to rattle Candide out of his stillness.

He thought of Cunégonde. Had he not set out on this journey to find her? Was she not suffering somewhere, waiting for him? His love for her, undimmed by time or reason, now burned all the brighter against the stillness of Eldorado. He convinced himself that this, above all, was why he must leave.

But there was more to it than that.

The wealth that meant nothing to the Eldoradians filled Candide with a new hunger. The “pebbles” he had accumulated might not be worth much here, but in the outside world, he would be a rich man. He envisioned himself returning to Europe, pockets brimming with gold, dazzling the world with tales of his journey. How pleasant it was to be on the move, Candide said to his friend, Cacambo. To be noticed back home, to brag about one’s travels. Why stay put when there is so much power and glory to seize?

With that, Candide and Cacambo sought Eldorado’s king to ask permission to leave.

The wise ruler, having seen too many men before mistake gold for happiness, counseled, “When one is tolerably well off somewhere, one ought to remain there.”

The advice fell on deaf ears. The ruler granted their request and the pair set out. As Voltaire writes, “our two happy wanderers resolved to be happy no longer.”

It takes Candide the rest of the book to understand the king’s warning. The pursuit of “the best of all possible worlds” brings misery, disappointment, and no shortage of scammers. The pursuit of absolute perfection is futile. The pursuit of practical goodness and happiness is not.

Eventually, Candide stops pursuing the impossible and buys a small farm. After all his wandering, he finally takes root and decides to cultivate his own garden.

That is the endpoint.

Happiness and goodness were always right in front of him, just as they are always right in front of us.

This mile. This conversation. This meal. This person. This patch of earth.

This moment.

It’s where all good things, and good fortune, live.

, , , , ,
Scroll to Top